My Year To Thrive

"My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style." ~Maya Angelou


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A Brief(ish) History of Me

Finally rewriting the About Me page, so I decided to write up my bio.  It’s longer than I want on the page, so I shall post it here & link back. :)  It feels a little Oliver Twist (before he meets the Artful Dodger), so I would like to say at my core I am a happy person.  That is who I believe I truly am.  That person just gets overwhelmed sometimes by the other voices waging war inside me.  Also, this is meant to outline my mental health experience rather than a full life story.  I have lots of funny, happy, good memories.  Stick around long enough & I might tell you some!

A picture of me at about 4yo.

It’s me!

I was born in the mid-seventies to a couple in rural Alabama, but my story doesn’t start there.  I was conceived in drama.  I’ll save the details for another time, but even before I knew the truth of my own origin story, I believed we absorb emotions in the womb.  Science backs me up, so it seems I was actually born to be sad (& anxious & irritable & angry).

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New Banner!

For those of you who get the posts by email or rss feed rather than visiting the blog itself, I finally made myself a new banner & icon. Wahoo!  It’s something I’ve been meaning to do since I changed the layout last year.  I’m finally rewriting my About page too (still working on it), added a Contact page, & took out a couple of pages that are no longer relevant.

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Mental Health Writers’ Guild

I mentioned this before, but thought I’d make a formal post since I finally added the logo to my sidebar. I joined the Mental Health Writers’ Guild.  Hurray!

Mental Health Writers' Guild 2013 Member

Who’s the fancy one now, huh?

I’ve always seen other blogs with their member logos for various groups & thought, “Oh they must be fancy bloggers.”  When I finally actually looked into joining one myself, turns out I just needed to ask nicely & write about mental health in a non-stigmatizing way.  Who knew?  Lots of people actually, since several of the blogs I follow are already in it.  Never let it be said I wasn’t late for something.

Now I just hope there’s a handshake.

(I just want to mention WordPress suggested I tag this post with Breaking Bad & Modern Family.  Advocating tag spam, WP?  How rude.)


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New Pic Mark, & A Bit About Running While Fat & Female

It's me, running, in a pink top & my other running stuff like big sunglasses, a striped sweat towel, & my orange mp3 player.It’s me! I’m wearing pink & showing my arms!
And check out the new pic mark I made.  It’s a WIP.  It’s prescription pills & running shoes.

This was me Monday evening.  I decided to wear bright pink & rock the naked arms.  And I ain’t even carin’ bout people seeing my fat arms.  I wasn’t nearly as miserable as I look, btw.  I just always look sour in photos.  As I told my friends about a photo of me I recently posted to my personal fb page, “I experimented with smiling but if you saw the Shrek movie where he tried to smile & it scared off all the little woodland creatures… it was like that.”

And I’m omw out to run, so I’ll keep this quick, but I read a blog post on a friend’s fb page tonight about the beginning fat runner having the courage to get out there & it got me thinking.  The comments on that article reminded me of so many things I have read about the just plain rude remarks & actions so many fat people have gotten just trying to get out & be fit.  Things like being mooed at, being told to leave because nobody wants to see them, having things thrown at them, etc.

It made me reflect on the things that happened to me, which was – none of that.  I feel very fortunate for that & I’m sure that has a large part in how much I enjoy running.  I wonder if maybe it has happened somewhere along the line & I just didn’t let it register?  But I can’t think of anything, & certainly no one has done anything physical.  I have however been cheered on by people walking around the park, which was pretty awesome.

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Today’s Changes to the Blog

Hurray!  Latest changes:

  • Updated the blog roll.  Lots of new links & the weight loss links removed.  I also changed up the categories a bit & updated some links.
  • Updated my Races page to include my own virtual 5K I did, & two races I have planned for next year.  Added a Carebear.
  • Finished the custom menu & submenu for the new theme.
  • Made several changes to the sidebars.
  • Changed the sharing buttons a little bit.

Now I need a new banner.  I have some ideas for what I want, but I’m still thinking.

Also, I’ve been more active on my Facebook page lately, so if you aren’t following me there yet you might want to check it out.

The font for this theme is quite small.  I wonder if I can change that?


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Meaningful Monday: Change « Achieve Believe Succeed

Butterflies & change

Meaningful Monday: Change « Achieve Believe Succeed.

Today on Aaron Schulefand’s blog, he has challenged us to make one small change for the good in our lives.  If you like quick daily bites of inspiration coupled with some fitness advice from time to time, check out his blog.

Speaking of change, you may have noticed I am setting up a custom menu at the top.  I have to go back & change all the post categories to fit the menus, so that’s gonna be wonky for a while.  I’ve done through April so far.


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My First Blog Post; or, Why Am I Here?

I thought a great topic for my inaugural post would be my purpose in creating this blog & my plans for it.  This would also be a great time to let you know I’m a big fan of bullet lists and outlines (though going over this in the edit phase I can say I actually managed to write this without using either of those.  bummer.).

I have struggled for years with my weight & my brain scrambles.  I am currently 253 pounds.  This is down from my top weight of 270.2 pounds when I began Weight Watchers last year.  That’s a lot for a 5′ 4″ female, or pretty much anyone really.  My current goal weight is 142 pounds.   I have Bipolar Disorder type 2, so heavy on the deep, dark depressive epidodes & suicidal ideation.  I have self-harmed & attempted suicide.  Obviously it didn’t go as planned, but that is arguably a good thing.   Also, I have PCOS – Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.   If you don’t know, it is a hormonal issue that has a serious impact on weight in many women who have it.  The best way I know of to describe it is the way my diagnosing gynecologist did to me, hormonally your body thinks you’re pregnant so it is collecting & protecting all the fat it can get its grubby little paws on.  I used to be quite thin, but that was a long time ago in another life.  There’s a lot more to say about all this, but if I cram it all into this post, what will I have to talk about later?

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