My Year To Thrive

"My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style." ~Maya Angelou


Now That’s It’s Thursday Again… Last Week’s Weigh-In

“Reality check:  you can never, ever, use weight loss to solve problems that are not related to your weight.  At your goal weight or not, you still have to live with yourself and deal with your problems.  You will still have the same husband, the same job, the same kids, and the same life.  Losing weight is not a cure for life.” ~Phillip C. McGraw, The Ultimate Weight Solution: The 7 Keys to Weight Loss Freedom, 2003 (Quote Garden)

March 2011 progress pic

..And finally here is March’s progress pic, since it’s nearly April. I started March at 247, but this pic was taken at 246.2.

At last Thursday’s Weight Watchers weigh-in I lost 2.6lbs; 243.6lbs.  Hurray!  That put my total loss at 26.6lbs, which meant several things:

  1. I’m only 0.4lbs from my first 10% goal:~) Continue reading


I Earned My First #7DayChip**:~)

Most of us, swimming against the tides of trouble the world knows nothing about, need only a bit of praise or encouragement – and we will make the goal.  ~Jerome Fleishman (Quote Garden)

my #7daychip

Taa-dah! (image used from

In case you don’t remember, my goal with the #7daychip was to eat within my Weight Watchers daily points & activity points I earned that day.  I had fallen in to the habit of daily reliance on my weekly points allowance, & really wanted to ween myself off of that, & use them for special occasions only.  Of course doing that isn’t a plan problem, but I wasn’t seeing the consistent losses I would like despite staying within my points for the week. If this week was any indication it worked very well! Continue reading


Beating Myself Up: Am I Too Weak Or Lazy Or Uncaring?

“We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.”
~Kenji Miyazawa
(Quote Garden)

MySpace Sympathy Graphics

Okay, I’m still working on transcribing the blog post I recorded during my walk yesterday.  But I needed to get this out because it’s eating me alive.

The father of my older brother & sister died the other day.  His visitation was Wednesday & his funeral was Thursday morning.  I did not go to either one.  He was my mother’s first husband, & I hardly knew him, but I wanted to go for them. Continue reading

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A Super Salad Giveaway!

There’s a new giveaway over at Danica’s Daily.  You can win a Wishbone salad kit! (Or I can… whatever.)

Wishbone Salad Giveaway kit @ Danica's Daily

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Against the Odds – I Lost This Week!

I am only one, but I am one.  I cannot do everything, but I can do something.  And I will not let what I cannot do interfere with what I can do.
~Edward Everett Hale
(Quote Garden)

My poor 5k route flooded lakeside:~(

Tired.  Considered not posting today, but I decided to push on with it.  So I’ll keep it brief(ish).

Last night at Weight Watchers, managed a 0.8lb loss.  Wow!  You may remember I said if I didn’t gain this week it would prove the meeting scales were broken.  Well, I managed it.  Now just three even pounds to my first 10%.  It’s going sooooo slow, but I’ll make it eventually.  Just have to keep plugging away. Continue reading


I Don’t Belong In This World

“I’m a creep.  I’m a weirdo.  What the hell am I doing here?  I don’t belong here.”
~Radiohead, “Creep”

Continuing to feel very down today.  There is so much wrong in this world & I just don’t have what it takes to fix it or live in it.  I can’t escape the feeling I don’t belong in this world & just want to be done with it.  It’s so sad & tragic.  I can’t even muster the energy to be angry any more.  I just want it all to end.  It’s all so wrong.

Still heading to WW tonight, but not going to attempt Zumba.

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Uselessness & Feelings of Rejection

I really wish I was less of a thinking man and more of a fool not afraid of rejection.
~Billy Joel (Brainy Quotes)


This image pretty much sums me up today. I found this pic in an article on IQ taking a hit following rejection. I couldn’t find any source credit for the art, & when I tried to get a link for the site, my antivirus blocked it as a malicious site. So… I’m opting not to pass it on.

Today I was pretty much useless.  I didn’t go to sleep till after 6AM & then slept into the afternoon.  I think my brain stayed in the bed though.  I did not do, or hardly even consider doing, anything purposeful today.  I put away some groceries I bought in the wee hours this morning when I went out for a new toothbrush & the strongest sinus medicine I could find.  The sinus pills & some ibuprofen have helped a little, but I still feel like crap.  I am so achy & tired.  I think the weather is part of it, as the worse the weather has been the worse my head feels, especially my ears.  If this doesn’t clear up, I’m going to have to break down & go to the doctor.  Blah.

Tomorrow will be better.  Until my weigh-in anyways>_<  I has occurred to me to skip my WW meeting tomorrow, but I am committed to going.  That’s one of my focuses for this year, to go to my meetings even if, especially when, I’ve gotten off track.  Great way to motivate myself back on track.

It has also been a bit of an emotional day.  But that’s pretty normal when I don’t feel well.  I lack the wherewithal to keep fighting off my anxieties giving them a great foothold. Continue reading