My Year To Thrive

"My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style." ~Maya Angelou


Hello Again!

“Day, n. A period of twenty-four hours, mostly misspent.”
~Ambrose Bierce (BrainyQuote)

Stop sign after the storm.

STOP! The best description of my life for the last few months. The tornado that preceeded this image would also be an apt comparison.

I chose the above quote because when I look back over the last few months, & beyond that into years, I feel like so much of my time has been misspent.  But maybe that’s a harsh critique.  Better to think my time was spent the best way I could then to cope with whatever I was going through.  Sure so much could have been handled differently, but that is from the perspective of experience & hindsight is 20/20.  All we can do is go forward knowing, & trying to do, better.

It has been a while, but I can’t say I have been doing much worth talking about.  My moods have been very up & down, in & out.  I thought when my Medicare started I would be able to find a new psychiatrist or at least a new counselor.  That sadly was not the case.  I did however go back to my old doctor here, who was the first person I told about wanting to kill myself, so she helped get me into treatment for the first time.  I was 18 then.  Half my life ago.  And here I am back fighting the same battle.  I have an appointment with her Tuesday for a general physical.  Assuming of course Medicare still exists then, but that’s a story for another blog.  She is working on a referral to a program across the state line. Continue reading