“Every form of addiction is bad, no matter whether the narcotic be alcohol or morphine or idealism.”
~Carl Jung (BrainyQuotes)
I went over my points again today. That makes me seven for seven days this week going over my daily points allowance. Today was not so bad though, thankfully. Today I only went over by exactly the number of points in the raspberry cheesecake cookie I ate at Subway. Oops. Damn, that’s a good cookie! But it’s not entirely the cookie’s fault I went over. I could have not eaten other things, but it was the one I could have, & should have, most done without. But my body was craving something sweet & I caved. I had a doctor’s appointment today, so skipped eating before it. By the time I got out of there I was starving & weak:(
So I have decided to go for another 7 day chip. This time for breaking the sugar habit by eschewing “sweets”, food & drink heavily reliant on processed sugar; i.e. cakes, cookies, candy, ice cream, etc. It’s pretty much impossible to avoid all sugars, & not necessary. A lot of foods, like fruits & dairy, naturally contain sugars. I’m not worried about those, or honey for that matter. Granted if I start drinking honey by the bottle that could change. A dietician once told me to look for foods with less than 10g of sugar listed per serving. I think that’s a good guideline for the less obvious sources of processed sugars.
Once my seven days is over I plan to go on for my thirty & one hundred day chips. I did not continue past seven days before because my goal did not lend itself to being continued. (I ate only my daily points for a week. You may recall this led to a binge the next week.) But this one is a keeper, & if I can make it through the first seven days I hopefully can keep up the momentum! And If I can make it for the one hundred days, then maybe I can even go forever…? I certainly have to get into the mindset that “just a little bit” thinking does not work for me with sugar. Tonight I might be able to have a cookie & put the rest of way, but tomorrow I will be thinking nonstop about the rest of those cookies & anything else sweet that gets in my eye line.
I have quit both crystal meth (months) & tobacco (years off & on) cold turkey. But sugar? It has a hold on me I find baffling & shameful. I feel so weak & gluttonous in the face on it, & it leads down a path of bad decisions. I have gotten clean for a couple of months before & not only did I feel better but I ate better over all. But I always go back…
While it is my problem & I own it, I also know a good part of that is the acceptance & availability of sugar. People get avoiding drugs & alcohol if you’re addicted, but people don’t understand how cookies, cupcakes, & candy can be addictive. And being a person with a mood disorder, getting away from copious quantities of processed sugar is that much more important. Not to mention a family history of diabetes & my own borderline diagnosis a few years ago.
Here are some interesting articles on sugar addiction I read tonight:
- Sugar Addicts Guide to Overcoming Sugar Addiction
- Sugar Addiction In Your Body, Not Just Your Mind
- Sugar addiction (Wikipedia)
- Sugar Addiction – Yes, It’s Real
- Sugar Addicts (article linked with the comic used above)