You can’t stop loving or wanting to love because when its right it’s the best thing in the world. When you’re in a relationship and its good, even if nothing else in your life is right, you feel like your whole world is complete.
~Keith Sweat (Brainy Quotes)
So I came clean last night. I have mentioned having anxiety & depression, & planned to tell him eventually about being bipolar, but things have progressed faster than expected with our relationship. My birthday is this week, so I felt I needed to go ahead & be honest about being bipolar & on disability because if he was going to break up with me over it, might as well do it now before he buys me a present or something. When people ask what I do I tell them I’m a writer because I have no interest in getting into some judgmental pissing contest about whether my disease is real & if I deserve to be on disability. With our relationship getting more serious, it felt dishonest & I just didn’t want him to feel strung along or like I had been dishonest.
Naturally, I went in there all dramatic like I had just killed a small child, but when I told him all he said was it was courageous of me to be so honest with him & he wanted to know how he can support me. It was a great relief. We got to talking politics the other day & he’s a fiscal conservative, so the disability part was really my biggest concern. I went into more detail about my history & my illness that I would have otherwise just because I wanted to paint the picture of how I came to be on disability & what it has meant for me. In general, I am far more sensitive about being on disability than I am about being bipolar. I’ve been bipolar a lot longer.
On that note, I found a well-written article on bipolar disorder & relationships. My favorite bit of advice is for the people who have a bipolar loved one. It rings so true for me from the perspective of a person living with bipolar disorder.
A Bipolar that is in an unwell period is perceiving life through a twisted lens. We react to things in ways that make no sense to anyone but us. The person that you know and love is in there.
I recommend checking out the rest of this post at the link below.