“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”
Maria Robinson (Think Exist)
It’s been a while! There has been a lot going on in my life since I last posted here, nearly a year ago. I finally approved comments & replied to the simpler questions. I need more focus to deal with the emotionally heavy comments.
For those playing along at home, here is a quick bullet list of the haps:
- Still living in my apartment 🙂
- I adopted a 2nd dog to keep my little baby company.
- I got a job. Then I left for another job. Then I left that job. Now I’m looking for a new one. Preferably a part-time job with actual part-time hours, & not a “part-time” job where you work practically full-time hours for low pay & no benefits.
- I stopped exercising & keeping up with my routines when I started working, but I’m back to daily exercise & a nightly routine that keeps my home a calm environment.
- I started running again! I joined a local 5K training program. We did walk/run intervals & never got to running a solid 3mi, but it got me out there & I’m still running. These days I run 20mins 3x a week & walk the other days.
- I added yoga to my nightly routine this week.
- I did standup finally! Just once, but I plan to go back.
- I’m writing again & working on some things for submissions. I also know a publisher who will publish my novel when it’s done — assuming I don’t fuck it up.
- Since shaking off my abusive ex, I haven’t dated again. I’ve met some guys, but can’t make that leap to something more. My flirting style is aggressively ignoring people. That makes it really hard to communicate interest.
- I’ve made a lot of new friends & have been socializing.
- The nurse who manages my meds here, is the same one who did a few years ago back home. She knew me when I was in a very different place, so can see how far I’ve come & is really proud of my progress. It’s nice to have people who understand how big some of the changes in my life are. Most people don’t get how significant it is I live on my own now, take care of two dogs, leave the house, even get out of bed. A lot of people can’t identify with the struggle, but all too many can. 😦
I suppose that’s all for now. I hope everyone out there who is still struggling can take some solace in knowing it can get better if you hang in there. It’s not easy, & I’ve been very fortunate to have the ability to take time out of the work force to be able to focus on my recovery. I hope to be able to return to full-time work in the near future, but for now I have to be able to handle a part-time job.