My Year To Thrive

"My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style." ~Maya Angelou


Healing your mind, one stitch at a time « madwhimsy

So crochet, with its seemingly exact instructions, could tell me step by step how to make something without my needing to flex a creative muscle that had all-but atrophied from lack of use.

crochet for mental health

Healing your mind, one stitch at a time « madwhimsy

I’ve mentioned it a couple of times, but my other passion besides running is crochet.  When I was working at the clinic that sucked the life out of me & left me empty (but I’m not bitter), I began to crochet & it was great therapy.  It was so relaxing & I could come home in the evening & crochet while watching TV, & totally not think about work for a couple of hours.

I always stick to simple designs because I don’t want anything so complicated I can’t lose myself in the stitches because I have to spend too much time concentrating on the pattern & I often just make up my own pattern as I go along.  Currently I am trying to get motivated to make an Ewok for my niece.  She requested not just an Ewok, but specifically one with a red cloak.  I love people who know what they want & aren’t afraid of asking for it; especially when they’re a 7yo girl who also insists that I bring it to her at her house along with my new pet rabbit.

Velveeta C. Babbs
She was a rescue bunny.

When I saw this article come across my Pinterest feed, where I have numerous boards dedicated to crochet patterns, techniques, & accouterments, & I decided to share a little about my other love.

If something is so wrong with you that you, as a naturally creative individual, cannot think up something if your life depended on it (and sometimes you don’t care that you can’t, which is even worse), crochet gives you a hundred accomplishments in an inch-sized piece.  In an inch you have the achievement of lots of of consistent stitches, of creating a recognizable shape, of making something out of string and thin air, and of having something tangible in front of you – THAT YOU MADE.  Then you notice you start caring again and begin looking for your next project, and soon after that your creative spark turns into an uncontrolled bonfire.

Not to mention you get to call yourself a hooker & talk about your balls, & it’s completely not a dirty or illegal thing.  SCORE!


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I Have Goals – I Swear

“Success isn’t a result of spontaneous combustion.  You must set yourself on fire.”
~Arnold H. Glasow~
(Goal Quotes)
(Maybe not the best quote for bipolar, as some might take it too literally. -DO NOT SET YOURSELF ON FIRE FOR REAL.  IT IS BAD.-)

Parts & yarn for a crocheted doll.


Ugh, skipped working out again today:~/  Have been feeling mopey again, though less physically ill.  Definitely having some sinus issues though.  However, I will be finishing the doll again today.  She has haunted me & was a big part in holding me back from wanting to go work out.  (Eventhough I haven’t even worked on her yet, today…)

My niece took her first steps today, so this doll can now be a xmas/birthday/yay-your-legs-work gift.  That’s a lot of mileage for a handmade doll. Continue reading


Mental Health Monday: Up & Down, & Through It.

“I don’t like standing near the edge of a platform when an express train is passing through.  I like to stand right back and if possible get a pillar between me and the train.  I don’t like to stand by the side of a ship and look down into the water.  A second’s action would end everything.  A few drops of desperation.”
~Winston Churchill (Quotes on Bipolar)

Cruikshank woman committing suicide by jumping off a bridge from; believed to be in the public domain.

I share that feeling with Mr. Churchill. I can’t be near a drop without thinking of jumping anymore than I can have a knife without thinking of cutting myself. I avoid guns entirely for those reasons. The image used is Cruikshank Woman Committing Suicide By Jumping Off A Bridge. I found it through on a Google search. The site wouldn’t come up, but the image was still on Google. The snippet said it is considered a public domain image.

So the last week was pretty good, but still a bit up & down.  It started off strong, then dipped the last half.  Though, I feel like I don’t remember much of last week.  I do know that I kept up with my exercise & Weight Watchers, & some housework even when I felt down, or had a binge one day.  I am very proud of that.  Not to mention updating this blog:~)  I’ve been cranky today & am pushing myself to write this.   Also, I only slept about four or five hours last night, so I’m really tired.

With that I think I’ll get to the bullets point review. Continue reading

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My Schedule On Desktop Notes

Just in case anyone was interested, I took a screen capture of my desktop, showing how I had set up my daily to-do lists on it.  I mentioned this in yesterday’s post.

My desktop notes to-do & project lists.

Here they are, Mon-Sun, & a project list. I expand the current day & tick each one off with double dashes in front when it's done.

So far, so good.  It’s simple, easy, adaptable, & free.  Plus, it’s in my face – especially since the ‘puter is my favorite means of procrastination.

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Mental Health Monday: Awkward Initial Offering

“Manic-depression distorts moods and thoughts, incites dreadful behaviors, destroys the basis of rational thought, and too often erodes the desire and will to live. It is an illness that is biological in its origins, yet one that feels psychological in the experience of it, an illness that is unique in conferring advantage and pleasure, yet one that brings in its wake almost unendurable suffering and, not infrequently, suicide.”
~Kay Redfield Jamison, An Unquiet Mind: A Memior of Moods & Madness~ (Bipolar Quotes)

shattered mannequin photo

So, blogging about the weight loss part was easy, but now I don’t know what to write here.  The issues aren’t as clear cut & fluffy, or as popular, as losing weight.  Way more people can understand wanting to lose a few pounds than who have an idea of what is going on inside my head & how it impacts my life.  It’s hard to make a bullet list of progress markers, but I shall do my best!  This could also be a good place to let my story unfold, but I think today I’ll just stick with the bullet list & ease into my life story.  Foremost, I want a place to be open & honest about what is going on in my life, one that might hopefully be of help to someone in a similar predicament.

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