My Year To Thrive

"My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style." ~Maya Angelou


Hello Again!

“Day, n. A period of twenty-four hours, mostly misspent.”
~Ambrose Bierce (BrainyQuote)

Stop sign after the storm.

STOP! The best description of my life for the last few months. The tornado that preceeded this image would also be an apt comparison.

I chose the above quote because when I look back over the last few months, & beyond that into years, I feel like so much of my time has been misspent.  But maybe that’s a harsh critique.  Better to think my time was spent the best way I could then to cope with whatever I was going through.  Sure so much could have been handled differently, but that is from the perspective of experience & hindsight is 20/20.  All we can do is go forward knowing, & trying to do, better.

It has been a while, but I can’t say I have been doing much worth talking about.  My moods have been very up & down, in & out.  I thought when my Medicare started I would be able to find a new psychiatrist or at least a new counselor.  That sadly was not the case.  I did however go back to my old doctor here, who was the first person I told about wanting to kill myself, so she helped get me into treatment for the first time.  I was 18 then.  Half my life ago.  And here I am back fighting the same battle.  I have an appointment with her Tuesday for a general physical.  Assuming of course Medicare still exists then, but that’s a story for another blog.  She is working on a referral to a program across the state line. Continue reading



And Now Back To Our Regularly Scheduled Postings

“The reason one writes isn’t the fact he wants to say something. He writes because he has something to say.”
~F. Scott Fitzgerald~

LOLcat too cool for rage


First, let me just open by saying I hate noisy eaters.  I disgusts me to have to listen to it.  Whether it’s smacking, grunting, or those diners who ooh, ah, & moan over their food so much it’s no surprise when they need a cigarette after their meal, I can’t stand it.  Okay, now that I’ve gotten that pet peeve off my chest, let’s move along. (But it really is gross & rude.)

Decided to go back to my original posting regimen & daily themes.  I tried a looser posting style, & ended up not posting so much.  So that makes today Mental Health Monday.  Yay?

We had a big day today weather-wise & lost power for a few hours, so I’m getting around to this later than I had planned. Continue reading

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I Have Goals – I Swear

“Success isn’t a result of spontaneous combustion.  You must set yourself on fire.”
~Arnold H. Glasow~
(Goal Quotes)
(Maybe not the best quote for bipolar, as some might take it too literally. -DO NOT SET YOURSELF ON FIRE FOR REAL.  IT IS BAD.-)

Parts & yarn for a crocheted doll.


Ugh, skipped working out again today:~/  Have been feeling mopey again, though less physically ill.  Definitely having some sinus issues though.  However, I will be finishing the doll again today.  She has haunted me & was a big part in holding me back from wanting to go work out.  (Eventhough I haven’t even worked on her yet, today…)

My niece took her first steps today, so this doll can now be a xmas/birthday/yay-your-legs-work gift.  That’s a lot of mileage for a handmade doll. Continue reading

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A Really Good Week! I’m Down In A Good Way:~)

“A wise man should consider that health is the greatest of human blessings, and learn how by his own thought to derive benefit from his illnesses.”
~Hippocrates~ (Health Quotes)

Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out

The secret to success (& a really cute motivational poster). From

I was really on point this week!  I ended the week with eleven of my weekly points allowance left over & 32 activity points racked up.  Hurray for me!  At my weigh-in last night I had lost 2.2lbs.  Hurray for me again!  That leaves me just another 4.6lbs to got to meet my first 10% loss.

But as good as the loss is, I’m keeping my focusing on the NSVs (Non-Scale Victories).  I can control what I eat & what I do.  The scale however I have no  control over.  Why yes, I am mentally preparing myself for a bounce next week.  Hopefully it won’t happen, but historically it has been a big issue.  But I’m going to keep making healthy(er) food choices & enjoying my exercise regardless.  Screw you numbers on a scale:~p  You can not defeat me! Continue reading


Friday Fat Check: Damn Snow – Go Away Already! (& free stuff)

“Weather is a great metaphor for life – sometimes it’s good, sometimes it’s bad, and there’s nothing much you can do about it but carry an umbrella.”
~Terri Guillemets~
(Weather Quotes & Sayings)

My Car partially uncovered during The Great Blizzard of 2011

My car partially uncovered. I know that counts as exercise!

Let me just say I’ve been pretty much useless this week.  I haven’t been able to get out of the house all week & so I’ve sat around working on this blog, setting up a Twitter, & generally farting around online.  I did manage to get in three days of exercise though, & I tracked every day faithfully.  I went over points on three days, but still ended the week with plenty of weekly points left & never had to touch my activity points.  I’m claiming that as a success! Continue reading

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Mental Health Monday: Awkward Initial Offering

“Manic-depression distorts moods and thoughts, incites dreadful behaviors, destroys the basis of rational thought, and too often erodes the desire and will to live. It is an illness that is biological in its origins, yet one that feels psychological in the experience of it, an illness that is unique in conferring advantage and pleasure, yet one that brings in its wake almost unendurable suffering and, not infrequently, suicide.”
~Kay Redfield Jamison, An Unquiet Mind: A Memior of Moods & Madness~ (Bipolar Quotes)

shattered mannequin photo

So, blogging about the weight loss part was easy, but now I don’t know what to write here.  The issues aren’t as clear cut & fluffy, or as popular, as losing weight.  Way more people can understand wanting to lose a few pounds than who have an idea of what is going on inside my head & how it impacts my life.  It’s hard to make a bullet list of progress markers, but I shall do my best!  This could also be a good place to let my story unfold, but I think today I’ll just stick with the bullet list & ease into my life story.  Foremost, I want a place to be open & honest about what is going on in my life, one that might hopefully be of help to someone in a similar predicament.

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The Meetings Will Continue Until Morale Improves… Progress Check

You’ve got to say, I think that if I keep working at this and want it badly enough I can have it.  It’s called perseverance.
Lee Iacocca~ (Healthy Living @ Shine)

Jan 2011 Progress pics

It was in the 30s out & my camera was giving me issues, so ignore the unpleasantness I was radiating when these pics were taken.

So, I had a good week I am proud to report!  The last Weight Watchers meeting I had attended was before Christmas, so it had been three weeks.  I had also not tracked or exercised much, or mostly at all, in that time, & had eaten out a lot; so naturally I was nervous.  But I was also hopeful.  I felt thinner.  That’s gotta count for something, right?  I had gained 1.6 pounds at the last weigh-in, so I was doubly hoping for a loss this time; at least enough to balance out what I had gained.

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