An Update, Only Four Years Late

 Basically.

 

Hello, dusty blog. Someone emailed the other day requesting I update. I planned to get around to it, but when I thought about it recently I realized “the other day” was 2015. Whoops. There have been a lot of things I want to talk about, but obviously haven’t sat down to do that. Tonight I was thinking about posting something on Facebook & decided to put it here instead. Based on the responses I have gotten on other posts, I think it’s something a lot of you can identify with. I’ll open with the poignant bit, so those of you easily bored don’t have to read through my whole update to see it.

Anyone Can Be a Runner & Here’s Why

Everything we hear is an opinion, not a fact. Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth.
~Marcus Aurelius (Brainy Quotes)

 

Because anyone who says differently is an asshole & everybody knows asshole opinions don’t matter.

A Quick Update on Me

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”
Maria Robinson (Think Exist)

 

My life

It’s been a while! There has been a lot going on in my life since I last posted here, nearly a year ago. I finally approved comments & replied to the simpler questions. I need more focus to deal with the emotionally heavy comments.

For those playing along at home, here is a quick bullet list of the haps:

• Still living in my apartment 🙂
• I adopted a 2nd dog to keep my little baby company.
• I got a job. Then I left for another job. Then I left that job. Now I’m looking for a new one. Preferably a part-time job with actual part-time hours, & not a “part-time” job where you work practically full-time hours for low pay & no benefits.
• I stopped exercising & keeping up with my routines when I started working, but I’m back to daily exercise & a nightly routine that keeps my home a calm environment.
• I started running again! I joined a local 5K training program. We did walk/run intervals & never got to running a solid 3mi, but it got me out there & I’m still running. These days I run 20mins 3x a week & walk the other days.
• I added yoga to my nightly routine this week.
• I did standup finally! Just once, but I plan to go back.
• I’m writing again & working on some things for submissions. I also know a publisher who will publish my novel when it’s done — assuming I don’t fuck it up.
• Since shaking off my abusive ex, I haven’t dated again. I’ve met some guys, but can’t make that leap to something more. My flirting style is aggressively ignoring people. That makes it really hard to communicate interest.
• I’ve made a lot of new friends & have been socializing.
• The nurse who manages my meds here, is the same one who did a few years ago back home. She knew me when I was in a very different place, so can see how far I’ve come & is really proud of my progress. It’s nice to have people who understand how big some of the changes in my life are. Most people don’t get how significant it is I live on my own now, take care of two dogs, leave the house, even get out of bed. A lot of people can’t identify with the struggle, but all too many can. 😦

 

I suppose that’s all for now. I hope everyone out there who is still struggling can take some solace in knowing it can get better if you hang in there. It’s not easy, & I’ve been very fortunate to have the ability to take  time out of the work force to be able to focus on my recovery. I hope to be able to return to full-time work in the near future, but for now I have to be able to handle a part-time job.

Upcoming New Running Game App: Run An Empire

My philosophy is: If you can’t have fun, there’s no sense in doing it.
~Paul Walker (Brainy Quotes)

(Screen shot from RaE’s website)

Reading a comment thread in the Fit Fatties Facebook group, I found a mention of Run An Empire. It’s a running game app (app game? story app? “strategy running game”), similar to Zombies, Run!.  The difference being, from what I can see — it’s still in closed beta, instead of earning items to build up your virtual zombie compound, you actually capture & defend the real world space you run through.

Perfectionism, Stress, & Routines

When you aim for perfection, you discover it’s a moving target.
~George Fisher (Quote Garden)

This is where the magic happens. Now that I have my own place I finally have room for a writing area! The white binder with a couple of notebooks on top of it is the never-ending novel. I have decided this will be the year I finally finish revising & editing, & let it go. Seriously. I’m going to do it!

I wrote a couple of years ago about things I was letting fear hold me back from. So far, I’ve had a job, started dating & had a boyfriend — even if he turned out to be shitty, moved to a larger city, I’ve become more social & made a lot of new friends, & I’ve started checking out the comedy scene here & working on a set.  Now, I have my own apartment! 😀

Like a lot of big life changes, even positive ones, it can be stressful. I’m really happy with my decision, but it is a major step, especially financially.  I am working with vocational rehab though to go back to work; a long-term job, not something seasonal.

Whether it’s 2 or 22, your size has little to do with how beautiful you feel | AL.com

(photo from article)

Whether it’s 2 or 22, your size has little to do with how beautiful you feel | AL.com

This article showed up on my personal Facebook page, & I thought it was pretty great.  So, of course I had to share it with you guys!  It’s message is certainly one I share & promote.

When you think about your best friends, do you ever think “If she was only a size 2, I’d enjoy hanging out with her so much more”? Of course not. That’s ridiculous.

So then why do we think that way about ourselves?

Working toward becoming a healthy person is a good and worthy goal, something I should be proud of.

Working toward becoming a size 6 is not.

It’s just not. It is not good or worthy. It has nothing to do with being a healthier me or a better me or feeling more beautiful.

 

Read the complete article here & click below for a brief update on me.

How To Exercise Out Of Self-Love and Not Due To Fat-Shaming | Everyday Feminism

source: Everyday Feminism

How To Exercise Out Of Self-Love and Not Due To Fat-Shaming — Everyday Feminism

Catching up on some things at the library.  I am getting closer to the ‘net at home; probably in the next couple of weeks.  Yay!  I got behind on my 31 Miles to Halloween challenge, but have been making the push this week to catch up my miles.  I should just squeak by.  Finished C25K w1d2 with J. yesterday, & we will finish the week up tomorrow.  Yay again!  The prize for October was to be spearmint teas & related goodies, based on my previous article about tea for PCOS.  I have it together, but decided to wait to until I can be more active here before posting it.

So, on to the meat here.  A couple of friends posted this on fb & I got it in the EF newsletter today, so I figured why not.  It’s a fairly brief article, as most of their stuff is, & does a good job of summing the issue up.

Still Here

Alas I am still without internet at the new place, but I’m trying to get the owner motivated in that direction. Sadly, he’s old & doesn’t care much for technology.

Did C25K wk 2, but a friend wants to start now so I’m starting over. I have been taking my housemate’s dog with me.

Hope you are all doing wonderful & planning on having a happy Halloween.

5 Lessons from Kids About Running | Salty Running

source: Salty Running

5 Lessons from Kids About Running – Salty Running

Still no interwebs at the house.  Looks like it’s going to be a couple of weeks.  Changed the password to my blog on my phone, but it didn’t sync to my  laptop OS & I couldn’t find out where it was hidden on my phone’s OS.  Finally figured it out today.  Brains!  They’re not just for zombie snacks.  So here I am with a very quick share for running week.

Have not been exercising because I’ve been in OMGChange mode, plus lazy, plus it has stormed all week so I haven’t gotten outside.  I need to get out & stalk a new running/walking area this weekend because I do still intend to start C25K on Monday.  I found the gym here, but then remembered I left my gym key with my dad because he’s working on my car.  I could go during office hours, but from their fb page the new manager seems all grrgrr gymgym weightsweights don’t be a big fat loser person so I’m just going to hide out until I get my key.  I’m pretty sure moving has to count for something as exercise.

From Lemongrass (which I’m allergic to btw) at Salty Running, five things she’s learned/remembered about running from her kids.

19 + 6 Reasons to Start Running

“There are as many reasons for running as there are days in the year, years in my life. But mostly I run because I am an animal and a child, an artist and a saint. So, too, are you. Find your own play, your own self-renewing compulsion, and you will become the person you are meant to be.”
~George Sheehan

source: HuffPo

I got moved yesterday.  Had my intake at the county MHC here today & see my new therapist later this week.  I also began the process of getting signed up with vocational rehab, so hopefully I can get a job here.  Sadly, there is no internet at the house yet, so I’m writing this from the library where I have to wear pants, & it’s hella cold, so this will be brief.

Since I’ll be starting C25K next Monday, I’ve decided to focus on running this week.  Yay!